I know this is a really strange title to this post, but it best sums up what I am feeling.
Jayden has been sick for about a month now with a cough that will not go away. I noticed it was getting much worse, especially at night, because he would come into bed with us and cough all night long right next to my face. On Sunday night, he was coughing so much that he threw up all over our bed. All he had eaten from his dinner that night was his peas, so that was really fun to clean up in the middle of the night. After that, I decided to take Monday off of work and get him into the doctor.
I needed to get some blood work done (for just my regular physical) so first thing in the morning, he and I went to get my blood drawn. There were so many sick people in the waiting room. You could just tell they were really sick, not patients like me just in for routine blood work, but very sick people. It started me thinking about how grateful I am for my health, I really should not take it for granted because it could be gone in an instant.
Next was Jayden's turn. Again, the room was full of really sick kids, some with disabilities. Again I was reminded how fragile life is and said some silent prayers that my family is healthy, and I am able bodied so that I can do even the basics, like pick up my kids and take care of them.
I am trying to remind myself of these important things. Because...I am getting old, despite the wrinkle revenge cream. And I am reminding myself that I am surely grateful for my able body and to let go of everything else -because...yesterday, I was plucking my eyebrows and I plucked two gray hairs. WHOA, How could that be? This may sounds gross, but my first thought was : Does it work its way down?